i guess its time for another update?  you could also follow my twitter or gchat status haha.

anyways since weve left off....july was crazy.  i flew 3 straight weekends.  cali, vegas, and then minnesota.  grandpas 95th bday, joshs bachelor party, and then joshs wedding.  good times respectively, but im happy to be done flying.

ive also just been kinda in a lull with my life.  i have this application to serve in macau...and im just having a hard time motivating mysef to do it.  part of me wonders if macau will be really want i want(maybe thats nto the right question to be even asking), another part of me just got done moving/packing and doesnt want to go through that in a few months.  sorta selfish questions maybe, and maybe thats the problem.

im also happy here socially, i have tons of activities and relationships and food.  gods doing a lot here...a lot god can use me here.  my job is still...my job, but i know i have tons of leverage.  im the strongest person on my team in 3 subject areas, so with my yearly review coming up im definitely gonna let them know that.  im not workign crazy hours or weekends anymore thankfully...but im always one project away from doing that again.  i think part of the problem is, in order for me to be motivated, i need to respect the client im workign for.  thats lacking.

i guess one thing i can say im happy about...its being single.  pretty much everyone in my sg is dating and thats all fine and dandy, but i have no appeal to join them.  besides obvious reasons about my future, i dont have to pay for anyone else, arrange my schedule to fit someone elses, take time to go out of my way for someone else, deal with someone elses problems...oh i sound very nice dont i.  but seriously as much as i joke around, ive realized theres better things for me to be doing.  and i cant lead if i dont know where im leading to(serious reason).  i guess they joke that every guy thats lived in my bedroom has left dating or engaged.  id put money on myself that ill break that trend.  the only reason id date anyone right now is if she had one specific interest...and well, ive yet to find anyone in the dc area with that interest.  and no, its not knife sharpening or japanese knives.  but thats a nice interest to have too. 

bed time, peace.

hmm...ive been neglecting xanga. 

since we last wrote....

-the projects finished...dealing with leftovers now.

-went to new orleans, chicago, minnesota and ft worth...trips los angeles, vegas, and minnesota coming up.

-moving into tlos.

-after talking with some people from efca...we were able to brainstorm something for macau.  have a huge application packet to get going on.

-decided to pick up tennis and golf again.  too many sports to keep track of.

when my coworker and I decided to move in together, we both knew in the back of our heads this was a one year deal.  my coworkers engaged, and is getting married this sept.  his desire was to move back to Pittsburgh to be closer to family and his fiance.  i had been talking about going to HK in the fall.

while we both had diff goals, we both had to go through the same process...but so far only one of us had the plan go as predicted.

my roomate had posted a bunch of resumes and initially couldnt find a job in pitts.  his fiance couldn't leave her graphic design job and move down here for a year.  In april he had pretty much resigned himself to staying in DC and apart from his fiance.  he had stopped actively seeking jobs in pitt, until one day in april he got a call from a company.  they were interested in him, and the job sounded like what he wanted to do.  a few interviews and a month later...they offered him the job.  he was pretty ecstatic..and just like that his future had changed.

while happy for him that everything worked out...i couldn't help but be a little jealous.  heres hoping my path ends out the same his did. 

sigh...work is sucking my attitude and energy.

im just trying to get through this project(end of may) and then move on.

ive set a personal deadline of late june regarding hk.  if i cant find something concrete to commit to by then, i'll have to delay until winter/spring/next fall.

i put a new up a song sum...kinda sums up my feelings about work and life.

pulling all nighters for work is fun.  being semi sarcastic there.  knowing i can still do it makes me feel young.  questioning why i do this for something i have little passion for...still working on the answer for that.